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Post by samm on Jul 19, 2014 20:49:03 GMT -8
Hey guys, answer these questions down below. This is your thread for episode one confessionals.
1. How have you changed as a person since your last season of iSurv1vor? 2. What is your favorite memory from your past season(s) of iSurv1vor? 3. What is something you regret from your season or one of your seasons of iSurv1vor? 4. What effect has iSurv1vor had on your personal life? 5. Who is the closest friend you’ve made through iSurv1vor? 6. Does the fact that you will most likely have preexisting friendships coming into this game comfort you or make you more nervous? 7. Coming into Macedonia, are you willing to backstab your friends in order to win the game? 8. What’s one way that you want to change your strategy in Macedonia from the last time you played? 9. Who on the Macedonia cast do you see as the biggest threat to you? 10. What is something that you want to bring to Macedonia that you didn’t do in your past season(s)? 11. What is the ultimate thing that you want to get out of playing Macedonia?
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Post by ricky on Aug 2, 2014 22:49:04 GMT -8
1. How have you changed as a person since your last season of iSurv1vor?
Coming into iSurv1vor I really didn't know what to expect. I've played these games for about ten years and throughout the entire period I was always regarded as a power player and at one point even acknowledged as one of the best. After taking such a long hiatus and witnessing the growth of the community, I returned to barely anyone knowing who I was and a complete clean slate. I felt like during India I had returned as smarter, quicker and more endearing. At this point I had became the person I was going to be for the rest of my life and I think I had such a greater understanding of who I was.
Throughout the game however I saw remants of the old me. It was so interesting to see the crazy and slightly psychotic side come out. I started to realize how competitive I was and in turn a bit power hungry.
I think what I learned from all of it was that nice guys do finish last, and the moment I started to pretend like this was more then just a game was when I started to faulter. I came in trying to be a bad ass felicia, and the moral of the story is that i should have just kept with it!
As a person I think I have become more self accepting and confident. I know now going into this game that nothing I do is personal and nothing done to me will be personal. This game is everything the world tells us not to be. We're liars, cheaters, manipulators and ultimately it's about getting the best of every single person around you. This game breaks the boundaries and let's us accept a bit of our evil side. I learned I am okay with it. Morality is checked at the door.
2. What is your favorite memory from your past season(s) of iSurv1vor?
Call me a jerk but I love a great power play! Early in the game I was requested to be in an alliance. We were dubbed the Magnicient 7. This alliance consisted of Jermaine, Greg, Fei, Niicole, Nax, Myself and... is it bad that I don't remember the seventh player? At the end of the day however Greg and Fei were not only working with us, but everyone else as well! How do you trust that?
I had found out that Greg and Fei were fast friends and not because of iSurv1vor and my strategy was to give the information to the biggest troll in the game. I didn't want them to get racially bullied and I didn't approve of that, but the idea was to use people to my advantage.
The next challenge coming up was the Battle Royale challenge; think Katana Catch, Hut Hut Hike, ect.
In India we divided in the caste system. The strong survived and then the weak were divided into two groups that would attend two different tribal councils.
I won this challenge and used my allies to divide Greg and Fei into two tribals with people that would easily vote them out. These tribal councils were groups of five, so three was enough to take someone out. However as the winner of the challenge I was given the amulet of ganeesh.
Cause Brookie was trolling Fei and they were both in the bottom Tribal Council; Brookie was meant to go, only for that I gave her the amulet (HII) and she Idol'd Fei out.
Later Greg and Fei quit at redemption.
When now looking back at the situation I do feel bad for the negativity that surrounded it -- but it was a great move, and it did the trick. Maybe this season I'll get the repcussions of it all. Fei is a nice person, I had no problem with her. I was just also a player, and like her i also wanted to win.
3. What is something you regret from your season or one of your seasons of iSurv1vor?
I have two huge regrets! My first is trusting and trying to align with Animal. My alliance had the majority come to the merge and some GREAT auction items. We couldn't easily won the final ten round with any problems. However I was naive and trusted Animal and Jermaine. In this situation we were all going to target Woods and just send him back out of the game. Instead they took out Niicole and attempted to hurt me.
My second regret in the game is after working so hard to survive after being dethroned I had to go into a duel with Nax. I wasn't prepared to compete and I half assed it and in turn lost. Through the rounds before I had to buy immunity, have brookie quit to save me and then also convince Jermaine to turn on Woods. All I needed to do was win a duel and I probably would've made it a lot farther because everyone at this point was looking at Animal as a threat.
I wish I would've been mentally prepared and not stupidly hung over. This was my bad, and it was such a way to go.
4. What effect has iSurv1vor had on your personal life?
I mean it has been a big part of my life ever since India! I watched Japan and routed for Niicole and I got live the game through her. It was nice to see her get redemption and it kept my interest the season after. Coming from that season I got the luxury of hosting and casting Venezuela and Haiti and that's when I really got into the community more and had the most fun I've probably ever had in ORGS. Now I have got to meet people and really accept iS as a part of my life. We're really lucky to have friends from all over the world who really get and understand you. It's a nice support system and it's so accessible.
5. Who is the closest friend you've made through iSurv1vor?
My closest friend would have to be Niicole but we had joined iSurv1vor together in the first place. I however think that being in the community together helped make us stronger friends and gave us something in common that helped further the friendship. I also really got to know some other friends better too and I am hoping this game doesn't ruin these friendships. WE SEE!
6. Does the fact that you will most likely have preexisting friendships coming into this game comfort you or make you more nervous?
I think that the comfort of knowing you can have allies at any turn in the game is great however just because you have an ally doesn't mean they're compatible for your game. Niicole and I are like best friends, however we're not going to like the same people. It's going to be a problem! I can see huge conflict happening there. Pre-Made friendships have no place in the game of Survivor. All it does is complicate it. This is iSurvivor Macedonia: The Break Up. Can you imagine the fights that are going to occur?
7. Coming into Macedonia, are you willing to back stab your friends in order to win the game?
I am a really loyal friend and that translates into the game. However if it's me or them, I choose me. I didn't join to help anyone else win, but I came here to play and have fun. At the end of the day if anyone is truly my friend they will be there waiting when the game is over regardless of what goes down. If anyone goes for me before I go for them though, then it's game on -- this game was never about friendship.
8. What’s one way that you want to change your strategy in Macedonia from the last time you played?
I can't be the one calling all the shots. I'm no king this time, I need to make everyone realize that I am not the most well liked person and that I am not the same threat i used to be. I mean look around us. I am not the biggest fish in the sea -- I hope I can play it off that people can see that. Pretty much I want them to see the truth, and I need to focus on not being a scape goat.
9. Who on the Macedonia cast do you see as the biggest threat to you?
Fei, Dave J, Joe P and Alex Rico are all upstanding people. The problem with them is that they have known each-other forever and at the end of the day are going to graviate to each-other. They are who I am nervous about the most; they'll be gunning for me. I don't know if I could ever trust any of them. I am not going to get Animal'd again. I've been mauled once, never again.
10. What is something that you want to bring to Macedonia that you didn't do in your past season(s)?
I never did video confessionals in my original season! This season I want to dive right into this and really give it a go. I'm coming in to have fun. Stress will come second -- this about enjoying my time, not over thinking everything.
11. What is the ultimate thing that you want to get out of playing Macedonia?
I want to see that I am still a good player! I feel like when you have played for so many years you lose some sort of normalcy to you. I don't play too often and I want to see if I still have it in me to get my way and work out strategies. I think I am good, but I still think I need that acceptance from myself. This game is going to be such a challenge, and I totally accept it!
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Post by ricky on Aug 4, 2014 15:50:14 GMT -8
So what a fantastic start to the game! As soon as the tribes were announced nine out of ten of my tribe mates were all already on call (myself included.) We quickly came to the realization that we were without any doubt the crazy tribe. Everyone on our group is pretty outrageous and has an amazing sense of humor. It's fun to be able to say that I like every member of my tribe and I could work with any of them and be completely content.
On a personal note I am extremely excited about the people I am surrounded by. However on a game level I have to say I am completely intimidated and have this humble feeling surrounding me. I think this is a good way to feel right now because it puts me from a power-player to someone who is watching more so then acting. I always am one of the first people to make a move because I like to secure my own fate and make sure that I am going in a direction that will keep me safe.
In this game I am moving a little slower because of my reputation and I need longevity. I am someone who is a prime candidate for being first boot because people either dislike me or the rumors that have been spread about my non existent pre-gaming.
At this point I look at my tribe as plenty of opportunities I just need to make sure they are my opportunities and that they are obtainable.
I really adore Nax and I am going out on a limb and will always trust him before not. He has screwed me over in the past but in this game I am going to have to try get past it and believe he wouldn't try to embarrass me. On another note there is Britti -- her and I have a rough history but at the end of the day she is super sweet and I think we're going to get along really well this season.
Alyx and Jacob intimidate the hell out of me! FOR ALL THE RIGHT REASONS. They are smart, they are funny and at least one of them knows what their doing. Jacob is a tough competitor and with four other Haiti people in the game he is the one to watch. Who cares if he is a winner in iSurv1vor! He's a winner in life and a bad ass strategist and I am positive that he can pull in a second win if people are not careful.
I REALLY like him and when he is a big threat I'd rather work with him then against him.
Throughout the night as people dropped off, the call ended with myself, Nax, Ryan and Britti. We all got along really well and had a lot of the same concerns and thoughts. We didn't even have to put ourselves out there too hard either. I am hoping that we built some sort bond from this conversation.. I just don't know! I think I'll have a better feel about what is going on by tonight.
I can't believe the game is here.
I guess this is Welcome Back?
Let's do this... iSurv1vor Round #2.
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Post by ricky on Aug 4, 2014 17:21:34 GMT -8
Our tribe so far is very good at not talking game! I mean we have two full days before we even have a challenge, and i think that is good for all of our sanity. The problem is that the longer people wait to talk game, well, the more people start to get paranoid. I think this is already happening with Derek! Derek is a bit of a narcissist but not in the way you would think. He just views himself in such a high regard and he isn't exactly afraid to show it. I kind of really like that about him.
In fact it kind of got him to message me to do what I think is one of the first one on one conversation on our tribe. He pretty much quizzed me genuinely about my relationship with Nax and I pretty much told him the truth.
My truth is that I trust Nax but am unsure if Nax entirely has my back. In return he shared with me that he feels the same about Jacob. Is that true? Who the hell knows! He could be playing hard ball and trying to get me to have verbal diarrhea. However I need to start somewhere and he came to me.
I think our goal right now is to try to work ourselves into some sort of safe spot -- but I don't know if Derek is a shady ass Felicia yet, so we'll really have to see.
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Post by ricky on Aug 5, 2014 11:11:12 GMT -8
Last night was so much fun! As a tribe we all got together and we drank away the other tribes misery. We're all about doing some charity and I think we all earned a new badge. It was fun to really let loose and not really care about the game too much. Today is game day and we all want to win so very badly. Last night we needed to get to know each-other more, it's good because it will make us appreciate each-other and fight harder for our groups survival come the merge.
I've never been apart of a tribe where I second guessed every idea I had coming into this game. I love these people and If the other tribes are anything like our tribe, well, I think All-Stars got THAT much more complicated.
This morning I woke up hung over; go figure! However I also woke up with a smile as both Renee and Nax had messaged me about an idea of a power alliance consisting of: Britti, Alyx, Renee, Ryan, Nax and Myself. I love this because it has people reaching out to work with me. I am totally down for this alliance but I know ONE member in this alliance is going to be totally iffy and not entirely down...
Alyx is a very emotional player who is just learning how to play Survivor. She excelled her first round because her personality outshines everyone and she's a walking party. I think that her committing to this alliance also has her nervous and a little turned around. She is super close with Jacob -- he is not included. My goal is to make her think I am on the same page as her so she doesn't feel alone in her discomfort. I hope this brings us closer cause at the end of the day I think if I can rope Alyx in I will have a powerful loyal ally. I hope?
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Post by ricky on Aug 5, 2014 14:53:14 GMT -8
It's been a pretty slow morning as everyone is pretty much at work besides the few of us who work from home or have the day off. I got talking to Ryan after I talked to Alyx and of course talked a bit with Craig, Nax and Renee as well. I think our tribe is going to be very unified and our focus is really on having a good time but also to build bonds through friendship. This is a good thing because I think I have been bonding pretty well with a few people.
When Renee had come to me with this alliance I was ecstatic. It was someone else approaching me to be apart of something big. I am however smart enough to know that just because this alliance was requested that it doesn't mean it will become such a solid thing. However if it makes Renee trust all of us -- that is always a huge benefit.
I do trust Renee myself and want to work with her, but right now I need to focus more on the bigger personalities to hopefully secure my fate a little better.
When talking to Ryan after I talked to Alyx, he seemed to share a lot of the same concerns as her. I think he's looking at this alliance approach as a little too early, and a little too quick. It's good to know that when people are receptive to Renee's idea, that they are always sharing their negative views on it. It helps me relate to their opinions and kind of conform.
My goal at the beginning of this game is to be more like minded with others beyond being forceful with my own intentions. I really need this all to work out naturally, and it can't be forced. If this Renee thing just falls apart, it's fine, because I've been sharing similar opinions as Alyx and Ryan to them -- i want them to know I agree, even though I really do like the alliance..
i think it'll help me get stronger bonds with both of them, but we also know something is not quite right in Macedonia.
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Post by ricky on Aug 6, 2014 13:20:15 GMT -8
The difference between this game and India is out standing. Such a different feeling and I am still realizing hourly that this is the real deal. Guy's we're in All-Stars! I come up into this bitch terrified that I was going to be looked at as a easy first boot and unnecessary power-player standing in peoples way. I am slowly but surely figuring things out and building some new friendships that I couldn't imagine blossoming this way before the game began. At the end of the day being patient is such a virtue and the personal growth I have at at the way I view this game is shockingly a real thing. Hopefully I can keep up the mentally I have at the moment and I don't switch back to being such an eager beaver. I know I am a bad ass beyotch, but sometimes being good means shutting up. This is not a sprint, but a marathon.
A genuine goal I have had so far in the game was to create some solid relationships that are real and also benefit me. I will talk about these more in the video above.
The challenge was super fun and It think it was the most creative way to do this challenge! I hope every tribe really put some effort in and had all their members contribute. It was amazing for tribe bonding and I think a lot of us felt good when the others would come back and compliment our work. For our tribe I just wish that a certain member paid attention and didn't make the actual flag smaller then it was suppose to be.
This person was a Graphic Designer.
EYE ROLL 2014. Annoyed but over it.
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Post by ricky on Aug 7, 2014 0:36:39 GMT -8
I am going to update a video confessional in the morning but I wanted to do a written update for the people watching.
I was so happy and content on the tribe I was given. I came in so discouraged and I didn't think I was going to do well -- the people I saw beside me terrified me and I thought I had no chance. throughout the past few days I really got to know Craig, Ryan, Alyx, Derek, David, Jacob, Allan, Renee and Britti. Getting this double whammy of being split apart and having us attend two tribal councils is so saddening. I can't believe last night sitting around for nine plus hours has changed to me sitting alone as my smaller tribe is sleeping.
I really miss them and it's only been hours. I hate that I can't talk to them and it's making me frustrated. This game is so different then the last time and I think it shows I am in such a better place. Don't get me wrong.. I am here to win, but the people are making this such a different experience for me. I am happy to still have a few people by my side.
I'm appreciate being on this side of things again.
It's time to really fight for ourselves now, we can't come back to Tribal Council. I don't want to lose anymore people.
UGH.
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Post by ricky on Aug 7, 2014 13:49:33 GMT -8
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